In the days after Ollie passed, many well-meaning people in my life told me my pain will get better with time. Those days were such a haze. Later that week, I met a fellow angel Mom and she told me something completely different. "The pain you're feeling will never go away, but you'll learn to live in spite of it." Woah. I'm going to have to deal with this pain forever!? And, in that moment, I made my decision... I would FEEL my grief... I would embrace it, explore it, carry it with me. My grief was a part of me now and I had to build my life around it. I chose peace, hope, love, and light, and wasn't going to stop until I reached my destination. But, this wasn't going to be an easy trip. I have a very long journey ahead of me.
On January 3, 2013, my 1 yr old son, Ollie, passed away. That's where my life "before Ollie" ends and my grief journey begins... My new normal, my path toward healing, my life "after Ollie". I'm a grieving mother who believes in hope. This is my story.