For the last 4 weeks, I've felt significantly less pain... It's certainly still there, but it's farther back in my mind. I'm sure that having not slept in a month has something to do with it, but my sweet Annabelle has brought so much joy into our lives and that joy outweighs the pain we've felt from Ollie's absence. It's a pain we became accustomed to feeling everyday. And this morning as I'm thinking of this and I'm thinking of Ollie, I begin to feel guilty that I'm not hurting as badly. I want him to know that I'm not thinking of him any less, and that I certainly don't miss him any less. I've said it before... The pain that I feel, I don't always mind it because it's the only way for me to still *feel* Ollie. And then I find this quote on Pinterest and it sums up exactly what I'm feeling... "The reality is you will grieve forever, you will not get over the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same again. Nor should you be the same, nor should you want to." ❤️
On January 3, 2013, my 1 yr old son, Ollie, passed away. That's where my life "before Ollie" ends and my grief journey begins... My new normal, my path toward healing, my life "after Ollie". I'm a grieving mother who believes in hope. This is my story.